~can somebody help me~

oh my God..what should i do..?
can someone tell me what should i do,what the next step should i take,what the next thing should i think..?all the things right now seems to be out of control..how could this happen to me..~
msti korg curious kn pe actually hppen kt ak..
sbnrnyer cmni,ak dlm dilemma,eh xde la dlm category dilemma sgt,its more to rse b'salah at the 1 side & another side rse cm terikat pd janji plak.what people called is 'di telan mati emak, diluah mati bapak' yke pepatah ni cm pelik jer.ah hentam sje lah,at least de gak bunyik yg lebih kurg..
ak dh jnji ngn ayh ak about sth yg related to money la, also related to my uncle yg nk kwen.. tp thank Gd everything dh setel during holiday ari2..ak plak sengal g stuju je promise 2 tanpa pkir btol2 dlu consequence yg bakal b'laku if i dare to take the risk if sth happen..
tp the probs here is about to make those promise as a secret to my mom..tibe2 nk di jd kn cter,mak ak dh bgtaw sth kt ayh ak yg mne perkara 2 also related to that particular money..
in fact ak xtaw menahu pn about the things yg mak ak ckp kt ayh ak 2,smpi lh ak taw after ak dh stuju nk rahsiakn pe yg ak dh jnji kt ayah ak 2..ak rse cm 'dushh' ~aiyarkk~
1 side ak dh jnji ngan ayh ak,another side ak rse b'salah coz rhsiakn sesuatu from my mom yg mne kalo mak ak taw psl perkara yg ak rhsiakn 2,msti die kcewa kn..sedih pn iye juge..
ye la msti mak ak x expect perkara yg ak rhsiakn 2 related ngn pe yg mak ak ckp kt ayh ak...aiyoo pe yg perlu ak buat skang ni..
perlu ke ak juz keep the promise untill my dad yg in4m sndri kt my mom?
should me in4m kt my mom what is actually happen?
should i juz ignore what is going on right now until the right time is coming?
what will my mom do if she find out that i'm was complot with my dad?
arghhh ak dh xleh pkir..
sesape de idea, nk kasi ak nasihat ke,pe ke, korg di alu2kn..as long as mende 2 x buat ak rse cm org jht yg betray his own family..tp nk wt cmne,terlajak perahu boleh di undur,trlajak kata..hah jdi lh mcm ak ni ha..isk3.
hopefully prtolongn yg ak kasi kt uncle ak 2,akn berbaloi la dng pe yg ak faced right now..huhu~